Take That. On tour. In Manchester. Again. *Cue me being totally overexcited*

Yes I am a groupie, and a geek and quite possibly a borderline sad case. But this cannot be helped I'm afraid.

So this week hasn't been the best what with one thing and another, but amongst all the sadness and tears I found something to smile about. I actually think I might have made a difference this week, not a big difference, but still I managed to be there for the people that needed me the most. Easy as that might sound, for me this was a big deal. It was something a knew I had to do but wasn't sure if I would be able to control my emotions long enough to. But I did.

And it wasnt a particularly big thing.

Obviously my grandad found the whole funeral really hard, it was his eldest son up there and to see this man who is always laughing sitting shaking and crying in his wheelchair was too much for me. My first reaction was to burst into tears at the sight of that, and yeah I did have a cry. But I walked across the church and I sat on the floor next to his chair and I held his hand so tight throughout the whole service. It was only when my gran came to me after and hugged me and told me that what I did had meant everything to my grandad and helped him more than I knew, that I couldn't help but have a cry.

I'm not the best at the grand gestures and am always thinking I should do more for people or that Im not there enough for others. But you know what? If I can make my grandad feel better or smile when he is sad, just by holding his hand, then that's enough for me. It's made me realise that it's the small things in life that make a difference.

So if I can touch my friends and family in any small way, or if I can do something to make then laugh or smile, or just give them a hug when they need it the most, then from now on I'm going to make damn sure I do it.